David Grant the founder and publisher of TBI Hope & Inspiration wrote this and posted it on Facebook. It struck a chord with me so I am sharing it here on my blog.
TBI Weariness is unlike weariness in my past life – a life now forever over.
In the old days, the days before everything changed, I could shake it off.
A hot shower and a good meal and I was ready to rock ‘n roll.
But not so anymore.
TBI weariness is a level of unfathomable exhaustion.
You want to simply put your head down for a while… and not come back.
Small tasks take Herculean effort.
And I’d be angry at my TBI – if I had the energy to even be angry.
Brain fog clouds my vision, thoughts scattered.
It all to often feels like it’s always been like this.
And always will be.
I long for a break from the perpetual and unending exhaustion.
“What’s it like to wake up refreshed,” I wonder.
“What’s it like to actually sleep through the night?”
I try to live life like I used to.
When I was whole.
Before I was broken.
On the good days, I pay a steep price.
Steeper than most will never know.
Trying to appear unbroken takes work – a lot of work.
On the tough days, the price paid is torturous.
Never a day off, forever part of the two words that sometimes
I really hate.
Got two pieces of news for you.
This is NOT normal.
I’m as eligible as you to at times crumble under the weight of this all.
Sometimes I just need to vent.